Today

 

I have been thinking about something I heard last week.  It was along the lines of "I'm not the same as I was 10 years ago..."

Without going into great detail on the entire message....it caused me to really think.  I'm not the same.  I'm not the same person that I was 10 years ago.  I'm not the same person as I was 5 years ago.  I'm not the same as I was even... 2 years...or 1 year... or 6 months ago.

I've changed. 

And I know that I wouldn't want to be that 30 year old... that 35 year old... that 37 year old... that 39 year old... that I used to be.  And I even would go as far to say that I really don't want to be the kind of person I was... yesterday.

I know that life and sin and hurts have tripped me up in life.  I've made a lot of mistakes.  I was really dumb 10 years ago... and probably, I think it would be safe to say... that in 10 years... I'll look back at 40 year old me and say that I was really dumb today. 

Because that is what I'm doing.  I'm growing and changing and letting God guide and direct me.  And I'm not smart enough to figure out what is the right thing and what is the wrong thing at the moment.  I can only trust that God loves me and is holding my hand throughout the process of this thing called life.

Psalm 37:23-24 says "The Lord directs the steps of the godly.  He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand."

Today.  I am just going to hold his hand.

Comments

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said…
I LOVE this, Tina.

Your incredible sense of humor though: same. :)
Thursday, March 05, 2009 11:06:00 AM
His Girl said…
this is a absolutely beautiful post. I desperately hope that I'll be smarter and better in 10 years as well.
Thursday, March 05, 2009 11:49:00 PM
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